The Other Day, I Killed A Cat!

The Other Day, I Killed A Cat!

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I kissed my mother’s forehead

I got in my car

I started the engine

While my mother — God gave her health — in the garden opening the house gate for me

I got in the car and in the rearview mirror I found my mother flinching

She made a spontaneous, half frightened movement

I understand that something happened, Something is wrong

I moved on with my car

I found my mom telling me that everything is fine

in the midst of her confusion

I found her as if she was hiding something from behind her body

I spotted the corpse of a cat on its last breath

My mom was trying to protect me.. to shield me from the scene

Covering with her body what could hurt me

Oh dear mother

Even at this age

Even now I have kids who are almost as tall as me

You’re trying to protect me

I knew I had run over that poor cat

The other day, I killed a cat

I called my mom that day

I called her yesterday

I called her today

I didn’t dare talk to her about the cat

These are things I only talk about with my therapist

These things go directly to the therapy sessions

twice a month

to keep me together

to keep me sane

trying to stay balanced

O My Dear Mother

I will talk to my therapist

About the cat number two i’ve killed

About death that refuses not to surround me

About incident No.

I don’t know the exact number

About a new incident that troubles me

Poor cat, will you forgive me?

O merciful mother

Oh my mighty rock

My solid rock

Will you forgive me?